Friday, July 26, 2013

Coming clean.

This week... was... not great.  I started off okay, coming off my high of running 10 miles on Sunday.  I was so proud of myself but didn't feel great at the end due to some tummy troubles.  I guess this is a pretty common thing among endurance athletes due to increased blood flow to the muscles and brain and less to the other not as important at the time organs.  Like the stomach.  And intestines.  Yuck.  Working on that part without too many details :)

I worked Monday and all was good - went to the gym after and did fine.  My new meal plan update calls for a protein pancake in the morning and I was pretty excited for that.  I tried 3 different recipes over the week and hated them all!  I ordered a mix online from FlapJacked ( where they have a few different varieties but I stuck with buttermilk this time around.  The order didn't come until last night so I tried my first one with Walden Farms syrup (sugar free, carb free, calorie free - of course some artificial sweetner but don't drown the pancake in it and you'll be fine!) today and it was magnificent!  Yay for finding what works for me.

Tuesday I was off and did my workout, meal prepped, ran errands, went to the post office, looked up passport information and set us up a time to go get them next week... it was an exhausting "day off".  Then Wednesday I worked a 12 and yesterday I worked an 8 hour shift.   I did Zumba with an old friend from high school who lives in the area that I haven't seen in years on Wednesday night with my planned back workout after.  The class went over by a few minutes and by the time I got my music and notebook of what I was supposed to do out of the locker room it was 45 minutes until the gym closed and it was my first time doing these specific exercises and not my home gym so I wasn't as familiar with the equipment.  Excuse after excuse.  I left without doing it and went home.  Yesterday after work I came home because Kyle was going to be later getting home so I needed to come let Penny out of her crate and wait for him to be home so I could go.  I ate my first dinner and waited a bit for it to settle and I got myself up and going.  I got to the gym and the weight area was completely packed with all these meat head guys taking up all the equipment.  I finally got a bench and set my stuff down around it and got my weights.  I got through  my first set of arm exercises and some things require the dumb bells and some machines.  I had my machine set and there are 2 sides to it so 2 people can be doing exercises on it at the same time.  This dude takes my stuff off, sets it up for him immediately after I had used it and does one thing and stands around at it acting like he's psyching himself up for his next set and does nothing for 10 minutes. I go over to ask if I can use the other side with my stuff and he bluntly tells me no and puts his headphones back on.  Rude.  So I go back to my weights and figure I'd skip that part for now and go back to it and someone has moved my stuff over in the middle of the mat and taken my bench and my weights!  Seriously?! I was so frustrated.  I saw some young guys laughing at me in my favorite blue Nike shirt that says Beast in neon lettering with my sparkling headband.  Um.. hey guys.. I'm lifting heavier weights than you are so I probably wouldn't be laughing.  Whatever.  So I went upstairs to try to get my 5 mile run in.  It was GORGEOUS outside but I was already there and figured I'd just do it and go home.  About a mile in my left leg shin splints started acting up and I barely finished my 3 miles.  I still have a 5 and a 7 mile run to get in this week so I'm hoping it'll hold up for me today.

I have been keeping so busy with doing all of this and training for this marathon I haven't truly taken a full rest day of doing absolutely nothing.  I'm either running around grocery shopping or prepping food or finally getting to clean this apartment full of dog hair.  I'm sleeping around 4-5 hours a night and that's not enough for me.  I'm off 5 days starting today and that's my goal is to get my sleep in!  My eating hasn't been too off besides the breakfast protein pancake issue which is now resolved.  I did have a frappucino yesterday when I left the gym and I shouldn't have.  My first slip up in my meal plan in 25 days.  I'm trying not to beat myself up about it too much because what I did is behind me and I'm not planning on it again.  I am proud of myself for resisting all the temptations thus far and really being good about packing and making all my meals.  I've never had so much will power to keep pushing forward before.  That and my bridesmaid dress that I ordered a size too small on purpose came yesterday so I'm waiting a few weeks before I try it on to see how I'm going to fit in this thing.  Motivation in itself!

Now that I've come clean I feel much better.  It's out there, it happened and I'm moving on.  Last night before I went to bed I went in with the mind set that today is going to be a better day.  I woke up feeling that way and then I found out some information about a person who used to be in my life and my heart sank.  I'm happy for them, I really am, and I have moved on but it's just a tough thing to swallow.  Everything 100% happens for a reason and I'm choosing to not let today be another bad day. It's going to be a GOOD day! And I got approval for my cheat meal this week that I've been wanting incredibly bad - pizza :) a few slices and I'm cut off!  It's been since our last night of vacation that I've had any so I can't wait!

Speaking of vacation... and the passports I hinted at earlier... We're going on a cruise!  I've never been on one and I'm super excited!  Kyle booked us a Disney cruise leaving on October 31st (have your baby before or after I go, Kylynne!) and we're going to Disney's private island and to Nassau!  I'm excited to end the very exciting month of October after Amanda's wedding, my birthday and the marathon relaxing in a bit of paradise.  Passports aren't required but are suggested and neither of us have them anyway so we figured we'd go ahead and get them.  Woo hoo!

Have a wonderful weekend and get moving!  It's supposed to be beautiful!

Tuesday, July 16, 2013

I've been a very, very bad blogger.

I haven't blogged yet in July.  Woops!

July has been crazy.  July has been awesome.

Well, I started July 1st following my new meal plan and workouts from my trainer.  I'm a protein eating machine and I just can't help myself.  I eat 6 meals per day and was granted my first "cheat/boost" meal this last weekend on Sunday.  Spaghetti and garlic bread have never been so good.

The spaghetti was good like it always is but the GARLIC BREAD.  Oh sweet Jesus.  It was worth every single second of not eating it for the minute or two that it existed.  I don't want you all to think I've been deprived on this meal plan, I'm really never hungry aside from first thing in the morning and after that I'm good to go.  I seriously ate 8 cucumbers by myself last week.  Did I have other options?  Of course.  Do I love cucumbers?  Of course.  I better if I'm eating 8 of them when I have countless other veggie options to choose from.  Cucumbers are convenient, cheap and yummy.  I've also eaten way more meat than I can remember ever eating in my life!  Lots of lean proteins of various varieties.  Our freezer is stocked with meats and I cook 1-2 times a week to prep them to portion out for each meal.  I've been making different things and seasoning them in various ways.  I'm trying not to eat the same meat two meals in a row so I don't get too tired of it.  Can we talk about how much I love eggs too?  This girl had never had an egg white in her life (that I'm aware of) until July 1st and boy I look forward to my breakfast every morning now.  I literally cook myself breakfast at 4:30 in the morning before work because #1 I'm supposed to :) and #2 because it's one of my favorite meals of the day.  I never ate breakfast before January except if it was a weekend and one of us felt like cooking, we went out for breakfast or if it was a breakfast for dinner kind of night.

I've also been at the gym around two hours per day five days a week and also doing my long runs on the 6th day of the week and taking one full rest day.  I probably wouldn't be there two hours everyday if I didn't spend so much time checking instagram and facebook before, between weights and cardio, and after while cooling down.  I'm probably going to need a social media intervention soon.  I started a challenge on instagram on July 1st from my favorite vlogger ( and instagramer who made a lovely challenge of daily things for July involving health and fitness.  Now, let me tell you I love this girl and I get caught up on all her videos once or twice a week.  She's a total badass and has inspired me in my journey, especially these last couple of months.  She gets her booty to the gym twice a day without excuses and is working hard for the results she's always wanted.  She looks phenominal and is super sweet.  I pretty much wish we could be best friends if she didn't live in Canada (warning: total fangirl).  I've been keeping up with the challenges and they are on my instagram account ( daily if you are interested.  I try not to double post those so much on Facebook so I can contain my picture craziness to one area for everyone's sanity.

Back to the gym - so my first 45 min-hour is doing weight training.  5 days a week I train a specific body area and do cardio after.  I run 3 of those times doing my week day runs and the other two I do other cardio or try a new class out.  I tried Zumba for the first time last weekend and Spinning last Monday and I pretty much loved them both!  I shook my booty in Zumba and kept up with the instructor.  Let me tell you, the great thing about Zumba is that there were people of all ages, shapes and sizes in there and certainly all levels of dancing abilities as well.  One lady right in the front row did everything a count behind and in the opposite direction but she was having a blast and I wasn't about to stop her.  Good for her for even being there!  I was in the very back but directly behind the instructor and my goal was to keep right with her once we had gone through the moves once each song and not see myself in the mirrors but be right with her.  I was pretty successful with that and she told me I had done a really good job at the end, especially for a first timer. (she had asked at the beginning if it was anyones very first time so of course I had to fess up in case I was really bad at this)  Monday morning I went and checked out my friend Paula's spin class. I figured since I worked with her at Bethesda North she might go easy on me if I was sucking at that too.  The class that morning wasn't too big and she was nice enough to fit me on the bike and get me started.  I made the mistake of getting there with not quite enough time to get my leg workout in before class but that also might have been a good thing.  I did legs yesterday too (pretty much my Monday routine now) and they were wobbly afterwards so I don't know if I could have made it through the class if I had done it second.  It was fun and went by fast!  I'd definitely do it again - except I might need some padded bike shorts or something next time!

I'm sure you're all itching to know how my actual progress is going by this point if you've read all that rambling so far!  When I weighed in July 1st (after a pretty serious "last day before I start with my trainer" mini-binge of fro-yo, goldstar chili with fries and chocolate) I had put a few pounds back on and weighed in at 218.  As of Sunday I lost 9 pounds in my first two weeks of working with my awesome trainer and following her instructions to the letter.  I weighed in at 209.0 and it never felt better to get out of those two-teens that I was so happy to get into.  I know now how close I am to Onederland (when someone has been overweight and above 200 pounds and gets back down in the 100's again) and I've got my eye on it.  It also brings me 5 pounds shy of tattoo time when I get to that point.  I've never eaten so clean.  Literally eating things I cooked and chopped myself for three weeks now is crazy for me.  I can't remember a time before now that I didn't go a day or two without eating out somewhere. Chipotle, Panera, Bob Evans, pizza... whatever.  It's been going on since at least high school.  So... 10 years?  That's even crazier when I put it that way.  I've even given up my very favorite thing - sweet n' low.  When I would go to Panera I'd get a large drink and have 3 iced teas typically while I was there.  That's 6 packets per glass and 18 just for that meal of sweet n' low processed crap I was putting in myself.  I don't even think your body knows what to do with that so who knows where that ended up going inside of me.  Probably my love handles.  Anywho, point of the matter is I'm a water-only type of girl now with coffee occasionally with stevia.  I decided if I couldn't have tea the way I wanted it I was just done with it and it's probably for the best.  I'm very okay with this decision.

As far as progress goes, my excitement over the American Eagle jeans I finally fit into has worn off because they too are FALLING OFF of me.  I need a belt!

I went to Columbus after my 9 mile run early Saturday morning and went to have lunch with my Mamaw for her birthday.  After lunch I met up with the girls (Karley, Ashley and the bride-to-be Amanda) and we went to David's Bridal to try on a bridesmaid dress for the wedding in October.  I was excited to see what fit me because the last dress I bought for one of the several weddings I've had the honor of being in was a size 20.  We grabbed a 16 off the rack on the basis of these jeans falling off and it fit like a dream.  I even had a little room to move around in the waist!!  We decided that we'd order even the next size down at a 14 because by October if I keep going the way I have I should fit in it then.  I don't even ever remember having a size 14 jean. I remember going from kids to a 10 juniors to a 16 to an 18/20.  Somehow I kind of skipped that part and I don't really know how.

Oh yeah, that little 9 mile run.  How about that?!  I worked Wednesday and Thursday nights, woke up at 2 Friday after having gone to bed around 9AM and took my well earned rest day and went to my favorite thing of the whole summer - the Dave Matthews Band concert.   I literally look forward to this night every year like I do Christmas.  I had a single 9th row ticket because I refuse to sit in the lawn anymore but did hang out up there with my friends Christina and Brian during the opening act and then moved down to my seat.  It was a phenomenal show!  One of the best of the 10 I've been to with a killer setlist.  I got asked in the parking lot by a very drunk man if I was 34 and if I worked at Subway.  He was jealous of my cucumbers I think.

Overall I've been so busy and do again apologize for being a terrible blogger!  I did do an interview with another website so I will again be featured!  I was blown away by the response from my blog post and I am just so lucky to have all you positive people in my life - especially through this journey.  I can never truly show you all my gratitude but know it is there in every minute, every mile and every single day.